Friday, May 2, 2014

Paying Forward



"Blessed are the merciful: for they shall obtain mercy."  Matthew 5:7

The concept of "paying forward" seems to becoming more and more popular lately.  As best as I can understand, it is the idea of someone doing a good deed to you which  you then "pay forward" by doing a good deed for someone else.  I've read examples of it such as someone paying a toll for the person behind them at the toll booth.  Another of  buying someone behind you a meal when in line at a fast food restaurant.  Perhaps the most touching was seen recently in a video that went viral of a little boy finding a twenty dollar bill in a restaurant parking lot and giving it to a soldier inside with a note about his soldier father who died when he was an infant and "paying forward" by giving the man the bill.   In many ways this is a cool way of showing love for others, but it certainly shouldn't be the main reason why we give.

I've been thinking a great deal about giving lately as I've been experiencing a great deal of it.  With my daughter's wedding fast approaching, she and I have had several recent discussions about how  many have blessed us over the last few years and continue to do so.    Many things in her wedding are gifts from someone.   Because of scholarships her last two years of college were paid for.    When my husband was dying from his cancer, friends and family gave and gave.   Since then, and all through my cancer treatments, friends rallied around providing in more ways than I could have dreamed of.   I don't think most of this giving had anything to do with what these people had been given, but was simply out of love and care.

While I like the concept of paying forward, for the Christian I think it is more giving back or "paying forward" just a bit of what God has given to us.  We take for granted so many of the blessings He gives us each and every day.  Because of that, we tend to not give back to others out of the showers of blessings He gives to us.  My prayer is that I will be more aware of where and how I need to give to others, remembering, not primarily what others have given me, but mostly that all I have is given to me to use for His glory.  John Calvin in the "Golden Booklet of the True Christian Life," says You cannot imagine a more certain rule or a more powerful suggestion than this, that all the blessings we enjoy are divine deposits which we have received on this condition that we distribute them to others.

Sunday, April 20, 2014

He is Risen!



For I know that my Redeemer lives, and at the last he will stand upon the earth.   And after my skin has been thus destroyed, yet in my flesh I shall see God,  whom I shall see for myself,  and my eyes shall behold, and not another.  My heart faints within me!—Job 19:25-27

I sat in my recliner this morning, sadly kept home from church by a cold, musing over what the resurrection of Jesus Christ means to me.  I thought on my all-time favorite part of Handel's Messiah, which is also my all-time favorite piece of music, "I  Know That My Redeemer Liveth." 

I know that my Redeemer liveth, and that He shall stand at the later day upon the earth.
And though worms destroy this body, yet in my flesh shall I see God.
For now is Christ risen from the dead, the first-fruits of them that sleep.

How I love that piece of music and what it implies.  His resurrection gives me great hope:  hope that one day when this body succumbs and is laid to rest in the earth that God will raise me even as He raised His only son.  I think on the wondrous love of God who loved His people so much that He sent His Son to live among them, suffer beyond our comprehension and die a cruel painful death laying on Him the punishment of hell.  I think on that and the magnificent power of God that raised Christ from the dead and I know His promise that I will be raised one day is not in vain because what He allowed His Son to go through for my sake cannot be in vain!  What hope that gives me!

When I think on the resurrection, I also think of the Lord's Supper which we joyfully participate in together on this earth as we anticipate partaking of it in Heaven.  What a wonder it is that Jesus promised He would not partake of it again until the day we all gather with Him in Heaven.  I have not seen the recently released movie about a boy who comes close to death and claims he entered Heaven, but I cannot imagine how one could even begin to describe in words or picture the utter joy to be at the Lamb's feet worshiping Him day and night and partaking anew with Him and all the saints of His supper feast.  What a glorious day that will be with no more tears and no more sorrows!
The last thing I mused on this morning was the promise in Romans 8 that Christ rose and ascended to the Father's right hand where He now intercedes for us.  He intercedes for me!   All my paltry complaints on this earth become as nothing when I think that Jesus, God himself, intercedes for me.  There is nothing in this life, not my cold, not my cancer, not persecution, not material standing, not any enemy, not even myself, that can keep me apart from the love of Christ Jesus my Lord.  Nothing can keep God from accomplishing His purposes in my life.   

Alleluia, He is risen!  He is risen indeed.  Praise God!

"But in fact Christ has been raised from the dead, the first-fruits of those who have fallen asleep."
I Corinthians 15:20

What then shall we say to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us?  He who did not spare his own Son but gave him up for us all, how will he not also with him graciously give us all things?  Who shall bring any charge against God's elect? It is God who justifies.  Who is to condemn? Christ Jesus is the one who died—more than that, who was raised—who is at the right hand of God, who indeed is interceding for us. Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or danger, or sword?  As it is written, 'For your sake we are being killed all the day long;  we are regarded as sheep to be slaughtered.'  No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us.  For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers,  nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.   Romans 8: 31-37

Tuesday, April 8, 2014

Exercise



Heb. 4: 11-13  Let us therefore strive to enter that rest, so that no one may fall by the same sort of disobedience.  For the word of God is living and active, sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing to the division of soul and of spirit, of joints and of marrow, and discerning the thoughts and intentions of the heart.  And no creature is hidden from his sight, but all are naked and exposed to the eyes of him to whom we must give account.


Exercise seems to be what my days are made up of lately.  I "graduated" from physical therapy, which basically means that I now get to pay for the workout instead of the insurance company paying!  So three to four days a week I spend an hour and a half to two hours working out aggressively in the pool.   To do that takes about two more hours getting there and back, hobbling painfully to and from the parking garage, changing, etc..  The other days, except Sunday, I do "land" exercises here at home.  Most days it seems as though my schedule revolves around the exercise.  I must admit that I have seen profit from the torture.  I have progressed from the scooter, to a walker, to a quad cane and now to my old walking cane (most of the time.)  Though not something my family encourages, if I'm careful I can even manage a few steps without any support.  There are fewer chairs that I have to have a son or daughter help pull me out of and I definitely feel stronger and more secure on my feet.   I have discovered that for the profit, I must expend a great deal of time and  discipline, as well as suffer a fair amount of pain.  The discipline is especially hard as I have to fight finding reasons not to do it.

I have been contemplating lately how much energy I expend keeping up with the exercise and how little time and effort I often spend on exercise in my spiritual life.  I hate to admit how often I will read  a chapter in the Bible and come to the end without having any idea of what I just read or how often I forget those I have promised to pray for in my daily prayers.  Paul several times speaks of the "abounding love" of the saints.  We are also told to "be holy, for I am holy" (I Peter 1:16) and to "...do justly, and to love mercy..." (Micah 6:8).  Matthew tells us to be perfect in chapter 5:48.  And we're not told it will be easy.  Paul tells us in I Timothy to "exercise ourselves unto godliness" and Hebrews says we are to "strive" to enter into His rest.  Those are high orders, but ones given to those professing Christ.  I am dismayed by how little time I spend exercising faith, love, mercy and holiness to speak of only a few spiritual traits.

Time is going by rapidly in our Christian lives.  I know it is time for me to get off my spiritual crutches and exercise those qualities that Christ would have me to obtain.  Oftentimes I act as though love, mercy, holiness and godliness along with so many other Christ-like traits are going to fall out of the sky and be mine for the grabbing.  It's time, not to stop the physical exercise, but to work hard on the spiritual, which profits much more.  Pastor John Piper in The Godward Life had this prayer: "Lord, let me do for you what is utterly disproportionate to who I am."  I have thought often of his prayer and made my prayer, "Lord, whether you allow this cancer to overcome my body, or my body to overcome the cancer, allow me to do far above what I am able for your glory and Your kingdom.  Fill me with the fruits of Your Spirit and allow me to be a reflection of Christ to others."

James Smith - The Prescription.
Spiritual health is an invaluable blessing — and should be more carefully attended to. Unless the graces of the Spirit are in vigorous exercise, and the duties of piety are our delight — we are not in health; there is some sickness, and we need the physician's care. To preserve health where it is, or restore it where it is not — attend to the following prescription. It is valuable; it is important — because, "it is for your health."

1. First, you must have daily exercise. I recommend . . .
that you walk daily in the paradise of God's Word;
that you work in the vineyard of God's church;
that you bathe in the fountain of redeeming blood;
that you keep up fellowship with lively Christians;
and that you exercise all the graces of the Spirit.

Attend particularly to these points, for, "it is for your health."

2. Second, pay attention to your diet. Let your food be the best — the bread of life and the living waters of salvation are recommended. They satisfy and sanctify. They make healthy — and keep healthy! Be sure you take sufficient nutrition; a little will preserve life — but much is necessary to health! Take your food regularly, for regularity is important. You cannot, "prosper and be in health" unless you live upon Christ, and live upon Him every day!

3. Third, as to your medicine — it is made up of the bitter herbs of disappointment, losses, crosses, temptations, bereavements, troubles and trials of various sorts. It is very unpleasant — but very profitable. Unless taken, and taken pretty regularly — you will be laid up with idleness, carelessness, anxiety, pride, or selfishness! But this medicine is intended to prevent or remove these evils. Your Heavenly Father will prepare it — and Divine Providence will present it! You are to beg God's blessing upon it — take it and expect benefit from it. Do not despise your medicine, for, "it is for your health."

4. Fourth, we prescribe tranquility. You cannot be healthy, unless you preserve tranquility of mind. In order to calm your heart . . .
live in peace with God, as a loving child with a kind and tender Father;
cast all your cares upon Him,
daily confess your sins before Him,
get a renewed manifestation of His pardoning love,
trust the promises and providence of God for the future,
live day by day,
be content with your lot — it is appointed for you by infinite wisdom and love! It is the very best that can be, and this you will see and confess by-and-bye.

Thursday, March 27, 2014

Life's Irritations



This week contained more stresses and irritations than usual with pain in the joints, wedding planning (a good stress), an audit by Uncle Sam and one piece of equipment after another falling apart, and it still keeps coming.  It made me stop, pray and think about how easy it is to be brought down by the "things" in life.  It also made me realize how grateful I should be that God has delayed my cancer progression to allow me to still be here today to deal with it all!  With humility I share my thoughts.

Someone I love
was stressed
leaving an imprint on my soul.
It sent me sliding down into
the pit of despondency,
where there was
sadness
aloneness and
fear.
To add to the debris at the bottom
things started falling apart around me;
toppling down one after the other.

As I tried to pull myself out of the abyss
I pondered how often my
tension
depression and
fears
Have left an imprint on another's soul.
I wondered how often my
words,
acts or
expressions
have caused another to sink
into a deep pit.

Then I wondered what would happen
if in the same way my
joy
hope and
contentment
would imprint themselves
upon another
leaving a footprint on their soul.
What if instead of discouragement,
my life reflected the One
Whose eye is on the sparrow,
Who watches over me.

Thursday, March 6, 2014

Change



This past week was full of change.  Two young couples I know delivered their very first children; two beautiful daughters.  A precious man of God went home to be with his Lord leaving his wife, a dear friend and mother-in-Christ, once again a widow.  The near future holds other changes.  My daughter is preparing for marriage which will entail huge changes in her life.  My Mother-in-law, though doing better, is still struggling with the effects of her stroke, having to relearn how to speak, swallow and walk.  Her husband is facing learning an entire new role in his life as he must suddenly become a caregiver.

A former manger of mine had a favorite mantra, "Change is good!"  How he loved to repeat that, particularly when employees complained about changes.  He had a good point, as change often is good, however I am finding more and more that change, while needed in our lives, is often hard.  I think of my nephew and his wife as well as the couple in my church who just had their first little ones.  While the birth of their daughters is a wonderful blessing, their lives will never be the same.  They will face new challenges that they never dreamed of.  The death of my friend, Roger, was a good thing for him.  God blessed him by taking him Home in his sleep and he is now with Christ as well as with all those who have gone on before, singing God's praises!  That same change for him means a whole different life for his widow who faces loneliness and sorrow as she misses him day by day.  My Mother-in-law, who has always been the one to take care of meals and the house is faced with having to accept care, something I can attest to as being very hard.  In a second of time life forever changed for her.  My Father-in-law, always the bread winner in the home, is faced suddenly in his life with becoming a caregiver for his wife as well as doing the things she has always done.  Those changes, while doable are going to be hard.

My late husband was a man who hated anything medical, couldn't stand being sick, threatened to pass out at the sight of needles or blood and was faced with major change when he was diagnosed with lung cancer.  I remember thinking at the time that I didn't understand why God allowed him to have it and not me.  Dave thought he could not change, but he found out he could as he went through treatments for his cancer.  Life also changed dramatically for our family with Dave's illness and death and then once again as I faced cancer and cancer treatments.  I don't believe that my husband would have survived three years with his lung cancer without calling on God's grace to change him to allow him to go through the treatments and to do things that he never thought he could do.  I know I would have had a much more difficult time dealing with my cancer treatments if my family had not been willing to change and do things for me that I never thought they would have to do in their life.

It seems as I read Scriptures that every  child of God is called to change as they face major challenges.  It is reassuring to read about those people as we see how they struggled and rebelled just like we do, but we also get to see the outcome when they are faithful.   Without the challenges we would never change and that is unacceptable to a God who seeks to refine us and turn us into gold!  Like those men and women of the Bible, we have a choice:  hide our heads in the sand and pretend we don't need to change or understand that our Savior walks before and with us and go forward a step at a time by His grace.   It is easy to be overwhelmed, but God never calls us to change, but that He promises to give us what we need to handle it.   (Psalm 86:7, Hebrews 13:5)

This week I am especially praying for those I know being called to change.  I am praying for the two couples with the start of their family, that when the challenges come they would see God walking beside them.  For my daughter, Rachel, I am praying that she will not become overwhelmed with the wedding planning, but will be able to look with joy to the time when she and Ryan can, by God's grace, show forth the relation of Christ and His Bride in their marriage.  I pray for my friend, Florie, that she and Roger's family may know, even in their sorrow, that his death cannot separate them from the love of God in Christ Jesus their Lord.  My prayer for my Mother-in-law is that she may not give up hope, but continue to fight the physical battles, knowing Jesus walks beside and before her.  I pray my Father-in-law might know that he can "do all things through Christ who strengthens" him as he learns to do things he never thought he would have to do.  Oh that we would all learn that change is good when it comes from above!

The choicest saints are 'born to troubles as the sparks fly upwards,' Job v. 7.  'Many are the troubles of the righteous;' if they were many, and not troubles, then, as it is in the proverb, the more the merrier; or if they were troubles and not many, then the fewer the better cheer.  But God, who is infinite in wisdom and matchless in goodness, hath ordered troubles, yea, many troubles to come trooping in upon us on every side.  As our mercies, so our crosses seldom come single; they usually come treading one upon the heels of another; they are like April showers, no sooner is one over but another comes.  And yet, Christians, it is mercy, it is rich mercy, that every affliction is not an execution, that every correction is not a damnation. The higher the waters rise, the nearer Noah's ark was lifted up to heaven; the more thy afflictions are increased, the more thy heart shall be raised heavenward.  Thomas Brooks "A Mute Christian Under the Rod"  1659